Bookish This or That #1

Hello, Bookish Friends! I thought this post would be a fun way to get to know me as a reader. My goal for this blog is to connect and grow with the book blogger community! Hopefully find friends along way ❤

I am cooking up some hot content for this blog that includes book reviews, discussion posts, good ole book rambling, and all of that good stuff soon! Follow so you don’t miss out!

Bookish this or that consists of questions that are common within the book community. I’ve gathered a few of them for this post.

To read in silence or With music/or ambience?

If I could read in complete silence I would! I live in a noisy home and silence is only available late at night or early in the morning. If I end up reading during the day I put on library or coffee shop ambience to compensate for the chatter that is happening and it allows me to tune out any noise that is happening around me. There are so many atmospheric ambience videos on YouTube and most of them pair up great with what I am currently reading. Makes for the ultimate reading experience.

To re-read books or Read new books?

I like reading new books or not exactly “new” but books I haven’t read yet. I don’t re-read books mostly I skim to my favorite parts or chapter. I have re-read a few but I prefer to read new books! There’s so many books out there and so little time.

Paperback or Hardback?

Paperback, baby!!! I love a good floppy thick paperback! Hardcovers are beautiful and have their benefits don’t get me wrong. Whenever I am reading a hardcover I feel like I have to be extra careful especially If I put down like 15+ dollars for them. When reading I prefer to read paperbacks I find them more flexible to read from.

Character driven or Plot driven stories?

I believe characters truly make the story enjoyable whether the character is unlikable or not. A well written or developed character will make or break the story for me. Reading is escapism for me although I do not mind a pinch of realism in books. I like being able to connect with the characters, feel their pain and their happiness.

Moodboards or playlist for books?

Listening to a playlist created for a particular book after reading it feels like your levitating. I love immersing myself into a story and I would do anything to part of my favorite fictional worlds.

Book Twitter or Bookstagram?

This answer is 100% bias because I am on book twitter instead of bookstagram. I might be missing out on the aesthetic book photos but the catch is you can post those photos on twitter too. I really love book twitter apparently there is a lot of discourse for some people but opinions clash in every platform and people have the right to be heard. Minus the discourse it is a great place to follow your favorite authors and interact with other readers. I’ve connected with s few blogger and booktube creators on book twitter. Everyone is so nice and supportive! I love reading currently reading book threads, book recommendation threads and how inclusive everyone is. My book twitter account has become a safe place for me to mindlessly gush about books, and other content I enjoy.

Thank you so much for reading! I had fun doing this post! Do you agree with my answers? Comments are welcome 🙂

Latinx Book Bingo TBR

Hello, bookish friends! National Hispanic (Latinx) Heritage Month from September 15th to October 15th. What better way to celebrate than to join a latinx readathon! This year I will be participating in the latinx book bingo with my latinx community and general book community!

There are so many events happening this month in celebration!

Along with the book bingo I will be tuning in Latinx Heritage Month Book Fest! It is an online event celebrating Latinx literature. They are having so many amazing and inspiring latinx people speaking at their panels about writing, representation, the importance of latinx lit. Check out the month long calendar below!

The latinx book bingo (@latinxbookbingo) starts Sept. 15th and ends Oct. 15th. “Its purpose is to highlight books written by Latinx authors in celebration of Latinx Heritage Month..” This book bingo is a fun and versatile way to catch up on books from latinx authors you’ve been meaning to pick up, to re-read favorites and appreciate the diverse latinx culture.

Read more about the Latinx Book Bingo from one of the host, Sofia @bookishwanderess.

The first half of Latinx Heritage Month I am going to be busy with exams so my goal is to get a bingo (from a row). In future latinx book bingos I would love to fill up the entire card! As of right now I’ll take what I can handle. Important to note that you can read one book and use that for multiple prompts!


To Be Read:

  1. Cementery Boys by Aiden Thomas for 2020 Release, Queer Rep and Intersectional MC
  2. Sanctuary by Paola Mendoza for Immigrant Story and 2020 Release
  3. The Grief Keeper by Alexandra Villasante for Award Winning and Never Read Before Latinx Author
  4. The Wild Book by Margarita Engle for Set in LatAm and Any Book By Latinx Author (middle grade)
  5. The Moon Within by Aida Salazar for On The Cover Rep and Intersectional (middle grade)
  6. Sabrina & Corina: Stories by Kali Fajardo-Anstine for Non-Fiction
  7. The Land of the Cranes by Aida Salazar for 2020 Release and On the Cover Rep
  8. By Any Means Necessary by Candice Montgomery for Group Book

A handful of beautiful stories that deserve to exist and to be read! Can’t wait to dive into these books. Highly recommend clinking on book titile links for the synopsis and to add on goodreads!

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you join the Latinx Readathon!

Stuck At Home Book Tag

Hello, bookish friends! Today I will be participating in the Stuck At Home Book Tag and thank you Val from Behind That Story for tagging me! This is the first time I’ve been tagged in anything! It feels good to be a part of something.

Rules for the Tag:

  • Thank the person who tagged you
  • Answer the questions down below
  • Pingback to the creator: Ellyn @Allonsythornaxx.
  • Nominate 5+ bloggers you’d like to know more about, to do this tag

The Questions:

What are you currently reading?

I’m currently reading two books!

The City We Became by N.K Jemisin

I am going to be honest with you this is a bit of a slow read for me. The concept of this book is cool and I find the writing style interesting so I am willing to preserver.

The Starless Sea by Erin Morgenstern

A story within another story along with multiple stories, a total whimsical rush! I have yet to find the right words to describe it so do not let the “whimsical rush” fool you because this isn’t a book of playfulness and laughter. More of a magical adventurous mystery, if that makes sense. I love being immersed in a atmospheric story and being lost in a fantasy. I am only halfway through but I am trying to savor every moment. There’s a magical string that pulls me into the story and I don’t want to let go.

What is your favorite ‘can’t leave the house’ activity?

Playing chef in the kitchen, these past few months I’ve been collecting a ton of different recipes off Pinterest and been inspired to whip a few of them up. I find cooking and baking to be enjoyable and it is a fun versatile activity to get lost in. Listen I am no Emoni from With The Fire On High by Elizabeth Acevedo but I am trying my best and the outcome is totally edible. 😇

A book you’ve been meaning to read for forever

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller!

I’ve seen such high praise for this book also the same reason why I am hesitant to get to reading this. I plan on reading this by the end of the year though so lets hope that happens.

An intimidating book on your to be read (TBR)

Jade City by Fonda Lee.

Everyone has been raving about this book and the series in generally and I want to see what’s up. I heard the plot is good and the characters are well written and it’s action packed with complex family dynamics. I am sold but this is a series and I have commitment issues when it comes to series. I usually end up reading book 1 of any series and even though I loved it for some reason I don’t even bother on picking up the sequel. I’m a standalone gurl what can I say.

Top 3 books on you TBR

Recommend a short book

Meet Cute Club by Jack Harbon

In this super cute m/m romance we follow Jordan Collins, a hopeless romantic who loves getting lost in romance novels, and he runs a book club named Meet Cute Club. One day he meets Rex at his local bookstore. Rex did not make a first good impression without hesitation he teases Jordan’s taste in books and their story goes off from there. I adored the characters, the witty banter, and I laughed out loud several times. It was a fun read!

Recommend a long book

On The Come Up By Angie Thomas

More than 450 pages constitutes as a long book so I am going with this one which is 464 pages long. 🤣🤣 This story is really good! This book follows Brianna on her way to the come up! She has the dream of becoming a rapper just like her daddy. She wants to carve out her own path. Bri is one of my favorite protagonists. I love how headstrong she is and how she is willing to learn from her mistakes. Her character development was executed beautifully and the rapping was incredible! The relationships in this book are written so well and they are so raw and complex. This book is amazing! I love it so much! One of the best books I’ve read all year.

What book do you plan on reading next?

There are a few books I have in mind. Definitely would like to read a book with major autumnal vibes.

I Tag

Henry @henrysbookshelf

Reyna @ReynasPages

Kaylee @readingthroughthewardrobe

Ashleigh @theashleighdeanna

JoAnne @readingthroughthewardrobe

Erin @readingonastar

Vel @missbookishrebel

This was a fun tag! Thank you so much for reading! Have you read any of the books mentioned?

Books Read In August 2020

Hello, bookish friends! Welcome to my blog Chaotic Pages! This post will consist of  mini reviews for my top 3 reads of the month, and list the rest of the books with ratings. Along with what I am currently reading. This month was a good reading month! I came across a few new favorites. I read a total of 7 books and 2,899 pages. It was a good reading month for me. I would like to keep up this momentum until the end of the year! Without further ado lets get into it! 

Books I Read

Top 3 Books (In no particular order) 

One The Come Up By Angie Thomas (464 pages)⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (4.5)

Sixteen-year-old Bri wants to be one of the greatest rappers of all time. Or at least make it out of her neighborhood one day. As the daughter of an underground rap legend who died before he hit big, Bri’s got big shoes to fill. But now that her mom has unexpectedly lost her job, food banks and shutoff notices are as much a part of Bri’s life as beats and rhymes. With bills piling up and homelessness staring her family down, Bri no longer just wants to make it—she has to make it.

I loved this so much! Bri is one of my favorite female protagonists. How can you hate her she speaks up for what is right, she cares for her family and is willing to do anything for them and is authentically herself without hesitation. Love how this story showed an appreciation of rap music and culture. This was SO good. I’m so happy it’s being adapted into a film because everyone needs to know this story!

House In The Cerulean Sea by T.J Klune (393 pages) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5)

A magical island. A dangerous task. A burning secret.

Linus Baker leads a quiet, solitary life. At forty, he lives in a tiny house with a devious cat and his old records. As a Case Worker at the Department in Charge Of Magical Youth, he spends his days overseeing the well-being of children in government-sanctioned orphanages.

When Linus is unexpectedly summoned by Extremely Upper Management he’s given a curious and highly classified assignment: travel to Marsyas Island Orphanage, where six dangerous children reside: a gnome, a sprite, a wyvern, an unidentifiable green blob, a were-Pomeranian, and the Antichrist. Linus must set aside his fears and determine whether or not they’re likely to bring about the end of days.

I loved every second of this book and these charming characters especially the powerful message of this book! It’s about acceptance, love, and standing up for what you truly in. It’s an endearing found family story that will warm your heart. It has a slow burn romance that won’t frustrate you in any way because it unfolds perfectly and the pining is *chef’s kiss*. This writing!! I ate it up!

Heart Bones by Colleen Hoover ( 338 pages) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (4.5)

Life and a dismal last name are the only two things Beyah Grim’s parents ever gave her. After carving her path all on her own, Beyah is well on her way to bigger and better things, thanks to no one but herself.
With only two short months separating her from the future she’s built and the past she desperately wants to leave behind, an unexpected death leaves Beyah with no place to go during the interim. Forced to reach out to her last resort, Beyah has to spend the remainder of her summer on a peninsula in Texas with a father she barely knows and meets someone whom she might like.

“Look at us. Two lonely kids who slipped through all the cracks, but then climbed right back up to the top of the world”

Beyah spends the summer with her father and his new family and she bummed that this is how she has to spend her last summer before she goes off for college. Her fathers neighbor, Samson, turns out to be an unexpected new friend and might be the only person she doesn’t hate. A summer fling starts up but agree to keep it light fling since they are both leaving at the end summer. All I am going to say this is not as predictable I thought it was going to be. This was an emotional ride. I loved every moment, every page, and I adore the two main characters Beyah and Samson so much. I related to Beyah through unfortunate life experiences the reason why I carry this book so close to my heart. Its a story of love, survival, trust, and allowing yourself to be free. 
Content Warning: Substance Abuse

That’s a Wrap!

I am ready to get back into blogging consistently and plan on being more active within the community. I would like to join in autumn festivities! Comment down below If there are any fall themed read alongs or tags to participate in. Thank you so much for reading! 

Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag

Hello! It’s been a while since I’ve been on this blog and I missed it so much. I may be a month late to do this tag but I can’t help it! It’s such a fun tag to read and watch! Despite the current state of the world, 2020 has so far been a good reading year for me. I found so many new favorites and I can’t wait to share them! (Disclaimer I did eradicate a few questions off the tag mostly because I knew I wouldn’t have an answer.)

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 1. What have you read this year?

This year I’ve read a total of 16 books and I am very proud of that number! My goodreads goal for this year is 20! I am almost there. This will be my first time completing a goodreads goal! Its very exciting. Before quarantine I managed to only read 1 book. I envy those who are able to juggle every aspect of their lives and still make time for the things they love. I used to struggle but the past few months I’ve been learning how to manage my time more efficiently. Scheduled time to do my school work , to read and for my other hobbies. I am so thankful for the books I’ve came across this year so far. I found so many new favorites!

2. Best book you’ve read so far in 2020?

This is a tough question! But I will have to go with Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo.

“Can you be from a place
you have never been?


You can find the island stamped all over me,
but what would the island find if I was there?


Can you claim a home that does not know you,
much less claim you as its own?”

This beautiful story is written in prose and imagery about grief and belonging. Elizabeth Acevedo has quickly become on of my favorite authors. Every book I’ve read by her has a special place in my heart.

3. New release you haven’t read yet but want to?

Cinderella is Dead by Kaylynn Bayron! This retelling seems like it will kickass! The cover of the book is like seductively calling my name saying “read me”. There’s been mixed reviews about it but willing to give it a chance! This Cinderella retelling seems badass I can’t pass it up.

4. Biggest disappointment.

Normal People by Sally Rooney. Hoped it would live up to the hype. I tried really really hard to get into this book. It felt as if I was reading the same thing over and over every few chapters. It started to get frustrating because there was no growth happening for the characters or the plot. It’s no fun reading about a couple you are not rooting for.

5. Biggest surprise.


Felix ever After by Kacen Callender!

“I’m not flaunting anything. I’m just existing. This is me. I can’t hide myself. I can’t disappear. And even if I could, I don’t fucking want to. I have the same right to be here. I have the same right to exist.”

I loved this book so much honestly there are no words! Stunning! Gorgeous! Everything about this book is beautiful the writing, the characters, and the honest queer representation. Felix Ever After follows a black trans teen who is wanting to find love while dealing with questioning their gender and sexuality. Deals with friendship and first loves. Loved every second of it.

6. Favorite new author. (Debut or new to you)

Elizabeth Acevedo,  has a beautiful way of filling up pages. This past May and early June I managed to read 3 works of hers. Each left me inspired and brought such comfort. She writes with a purpose and passion. It is strongly visible in her stories. 

7. Book that made you cry.

Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo, made my heart ache. Full on emotional tears.

8. Book that made you happy.


The Prince and the Dressmaker by Jen Wang.

“When I first learned the truth, I thought Sebastian’s life would be ruined. But seeing you, I realized everything would be fine. Because someone still loved him.”

A sweet read with a powerful message. The illustrations were lovely to look at. This story warms my heart and made me hopeful.

9. What books do you need to read by the end of the year?

Three books I would like to read by the end of the year:

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I would love a few book recommendations I am trying to branch out of my comfort zone. Hence why I’ve chosen those three books above. They are all different from each other and what I usually read. 


Thanks For Reading !

Everything Will Eventually Fall into Place

The societal pressure to have your life put together by a particular time period is overrated. It is stressful to be so fixated on age and time. I noticed I am not the only one who has mentally constructed an organized life map in the past. Lately, I’ve gained a fresh perspective on living. As you grow older, you come to understand that this imaginary plan you have for yourself is not exactly what life is meant to be. People have diverse purposes, ambitions, dreams, and stories.

Most of my hours are spent daydreaming, I am an idealist, as dangerous as it sounds. I am unfortunately conscious of reality notably all the imperfections and hardships that come with it. A package deal I would prefer to return as soon as possible.

Slow Down

Time passes by quickly, but there is no rush. As mentioned before there is a fixation with having one’s life tied collectively by a certain age. Everyone has illustrated distinctive depictions of how they dream their life to look like. There is no set date on when all of your shit will fall into place and no one fits all of how it should be either. The destination is unseen and the pacing to get there varies to person to person. Take your time to do you.

I reflect on this a lot. Even though I am not precisely clear about how I would like my future to look like. My idea of having my life together is being mentally and financially stable. Everything else like my career, relationships and other attributes of life is vague at the moment. All I recognize is there is no contest to have my life put together at a specific pinpoint. Because the only person I should be racing is with myself and my aspirations. I learned to stop comparing myself with others and live at my own pace. I will get there. 

Film still from Youth in Revolt (2009)

No matter what do not settle! That is probably one of my greatest fears, settling. Right now I am telling myself not to settle, but that is the scary part not knowing where life is leading to. There is no judgment if one does end up settling. Always keep in mind your worth and what you are capable of doing. There are endless opportunities, different routes to take as long as you end up at the destination that perceives the strongest version of yourself then it’s valuable.

In Conclusion, Life Deadlines are Nonexistent

As I see it you are the author of your own story, it can be as long as you want it to be with multiple twists or with cliche predictability. You are responsible for how it takes off, how it ends or continues. Articulate it the way you desire and let no one tell you it is not good enough because it’s not their story. Life does not have deadlines those are all imaginary and for something nonexistent, we sure stress loads over it.

Stop obsessing over time and curate life to what is perfect for you. There’s no blueprint. Focus on the present instead, enjoy your time and go at your pace.  Everything will fall into place eventually, don’t worry. 

Book Review: What If It’s Us by Adam Silvera and Becky Albertalli

Can we take a moment to thank the YA Contemporary Gods for this excellent piece of work! This entire book is literally a fun time! It’s enjoyable, relatable and comical!


Also, take a moment to listen to “Only Us” from the Broadway show Dear Evan Hansen. YES, they named the book after that phenomenal song. It sets up the tone for the book perfectly.


Contemporary LGBT Romance, YA

Published October 9th, 2018 by HarperTeen

437 pages

Okay, it may seem like I’ve been giving everything 5 out of 5 stars lately but keep in mind I’m not too strict when it comes to rating books like if I flat-out love it to where I become borderline obsessive… it’s a 5! At first, I did give this a 4.5 but even days after reading I couldn’t stop thinking about this book. I love LOVE it!


“I believe in love at first sight. Fate, the universe, all of it. But not how you’re thinking. I don’t mean it in our souls were split and you’re my other half forever and ever sort of way. I just think you’re meant to meet some people. I think the universe nudges them into your path.”

What If It’s Us is a meet-cute comedy romance that will leave you wishing to find love in New York City. It is a cute boy meets boy story that stars off with the two main characters Ben and Arthur unintentionally meeting each other at an NYC post office. Arthur spots a cute boy with a box. He goes up to Box Boy (Ben) and unexpectedly strikes up a conversation. Before they can exchange phone numbers or even name’s something extravagant happens at the post office that causes them to separate. Arthur believes in the universe, and since Ben mentions the universe does that mean the universe wants them to be together?? Arthur believes in the universe so he decides that he has to find Box Boy. They find each other but the story does not conclude there since the universe has something big planned for them. The story is told in dual perspective, which I absolutely adore because it delivers all the feels!!

I love the trial-and-error type of romance because it is sooo realistic! Relationships aren’t perfect from the get-go, they are awkward and complex and that makes What If It’s Us so relatable. Throughout the book, each one of them faces different challenges. One is learning how the whole relationship thing works and the other is coming out of a breakup that made him insecure about being in a relationship. So they discussed many important themes and displayed: homophobia, cultural and socioeconomic differences. They deal with friendship drama along with parental drama. Basically, throughout the book, they learn about being in a relationship and the hardships that come along with them.

This book had me giggling and smiling out in public like a fool! I am in love with these characters and their friends do not go unnoticed. Such a beautiful story! This is all I will talk about for the next few months!! I need a sequel even though that is least likely going to happen.

Mini Gush- Rant

Enjoy this fan art from @ vinnie-cha tumblr

I adored every moment of this book!! All the cuteness, the pop cultural references, and how diverse the book is! I was reading reviews and I know whether if someone enjoys a book is subjective but people need to keep in mind that the intended audience is for “teens” *cough* YOUNG ADULT! Anyone can read YA but do you get what I am trying to say? I for one is not a teen anymore but still connected with Ben and Arthur’s story. There is just something about gays and musicals that captures my attention. Love how social media is included in the story, and a countless number of Hamilton, Dear Evan Hansen and Harry Potter references (take a shot for every HP reference you read)! Especially if you are familiar with Adam Silvera’s work. If you love Broadway and the idea of New York City mischief romance, this book is something I think you might enjoy.

First, I read my physical copy of What If It’s Us and now I am listening to the audiobook whilst I go back and annotate. The audiobook seriously brings the characters to life. Like Arthur sounds like Arthur and Ben sounds like Ben! The voice actors: Arthur voiced by Noah Galvin, who played Evan a few times on Dear Evan Hansen on Broadway (do you hear me yelling!!), and Ben voiced by Froy Gutierrez (an angel).

Thanks for Reading!

Have you read What If It’s US what? Let me know your thoughts!

Book Review: Sadie by Courtney Summers

And it begins, as so many stories do, with a dead girl.

This is the first book I’ve picked up from Courtney Summers not knowing exactly what I was getting myself into, yet I couldn’t wait to get my hand on it because of all the hype. So this is my verdict did Sadie live up to the hype? Yes, she did! This story let a strong bitter yet powerful taste in my mouth. Courtney Summers beautifully wrote about an important issue that usually gets brushed off. This not an easy read to get through, it is an emotional rollercoaster especially since it deals with topics like drug addiction, drug abuse, child abuse, pedophilia, rape, and death. Sadie is overall disturbing, but the story is powerful and beautifully executed when dealing with this topic.

“Sadie hasn’t had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she’s been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.

But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister’s killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.

When West McCray—a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America—overhears Sadie’s story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie’s journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it’s too late.


Published: September 4th, 2018 by Wednesday Books

pages: 311

Genre: young adult mystery

Rating: ★★★★★

Purchase here or Check it out at your local library!

Not growing up in a stable home and playing the mother role for her little sister is already a lot for a child to do. Sadie has dealt with a lot of traumas because of her mother’s drug addiction. At the time when her sister was breathing it was her and Sadie against the world. Without a question, the audience/readers know how deep Sadie’s love is for her little sister, Mattie. Since she can’t bring her back to life Sadie is willing to go near the heights for her sisters’ death, and what best way to do that is to avenge it. Throughout her journey, she stumbles across a few people who may lead her to her main destination. Those people that she encounters along the way also never forget who she is mainly because of her stutter and her determination.

This is a mystery because right away it keeps the reader guessing. How does Sadie know who murdered her sister? Who is this man she’s trying to track down? Why can’t she call the police? The narrative of this book is why I fascinate it most. The story has two perspectives: Sadie’s narrative and journey and the podcast dedicated to finding out why Sadie disappeared. As the story unravels and what falls through is saddening and shocking and ties the story together. This book is a constant page-turner. Other may have found the ending disappointing, but I thought it was as realistic as it could get… 

What I loved is that Courtney Summers made sure she brought each character to life, especially Sadie. Sadie is unforgettable, dangerous, badass, and edgy. And Summers writing is real and heart-breaking. One of my favorite reads of the year!

Have you read Sadie? What are your thoughts?

Thanks for reading!